I have been wanting to work on this project for a prolonged period but it has never felt quite like the right time. Of course I would like to have documented my journey from the very beginning but speaking plainly I have been just too ill. Initially physically and then later on, psychologically. For numerous reasons I kept procrastinating and putting things off, probably out of fear of opening up and exposing my vulnerable side but I just was not ready to start. To be honest the anxiety and low mood have been relentless and so it never really felt the right time. However, I came to the realisation that if I was going to do this I would just have to bite the bullet and put pen to paper!

At this point in time I can now happily say that I am just over five months sober! I am so, so proud but boy has it been hard work. If you have any knowledge or experience with substance misuse then you’re probably thinking “No shit Sherlock!” but what I mean is that I really have had to dig deep and make sure that my abstinence has taken precedence and that my recovery is of course paramount of importance. At this stage I can say that there really is no going back and so this is why I wanted to share my story with you and detail what has actually gone into getting me to this point of healing. The nuts and bolts of what goes into transitioning from an active addict to someone who is very much in full recovery.

I have always loved writing and so I would like to use this as a therapeutic exercise and outlet. However, if my knowledge and experiences are relatable or could be of some service then all the more reason for me to do it. I’m going to make a start by detailing my journey and the steps that brought me to this point. Also, describing feelings, experiences and events as they unfold in the present moment and future. If you have any questions for me then please do get in touch using the comment section provided. Always curious and forever intrigued I would love to hear your thoughts on my posts and page. Please do say hello and drop me a line, I would love to hear from you!

R x