Cold Showers, Wild Swimming & I Found My Tribe!

It came to a point in my life where I literally had to ask myself a very important question, do you want to be a drug addict or not? Although my circumstances were increasingly difficult, it was actually really quite simple, what did I want for myself and my life moving forward? Despite being well…

How Can We Move Forward? Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway!

Just because you have been through something, do not let it define you. Yes I went through that, but I am not that! I am so much more than my mental health and addiction issues. Although I am an ‘addict’ I am now over seven months sober! Not one to congratulate myself all that much…

Homelessness & How I Can Be Of Service…

If I can’t be anything else then I will be kind and as far as is possible, generous. As I expressed in my last blog entry, I really took a lot from the twelve step program and the narcotics anonymous meetings that I attended. The main one being that of ‘service’. What does it mean…

Talk to me about ‘Narcotics Anonymous’ #N/A

Could I please put it out there and ask the universe as to whether I should attend a Narcotics Anonymous group? I am now nearly seven months sober but often find myself wondering if I need to be following a program in order to remain clean for the duration and sober in the long term?…

Anxiety, Meditation and More…

Where to begin? What a week I have had… My anxiety levels have literally been through the roof! Honestly, it is at times like this where I am reminded as to why I chose to self medicate and numb myself in the first place. For so long I numbed myself with pain meds and now…

Six Months Sober!

I am so happy to be able to tell you that I am now six months sober! To be more precise it is now six months, twelve days, one hour, eleven minutes and seven seconds. I am using a free app called ‘I Am Sober’ to count the months, weeks, days, hours and minutes. My…

Prescription Painkillers And More…

So where was I, O yes “Strug to func!” Due to crippling anxiety and desperate depression I was struggling to function on a normal day to day level. Failing to carry out even the most basic of tasks such as getting out of bed, bathing myself and eating. However, like a light going on in…

Can I Get A Rewind!

I’ve always been quite obsessive by nature, my mother described me as an all or nothing girl. You either have all of me or absolutely nothing. I never understood what it meant to be ‘balanced’, how to approach things in a balanced manner. For instance, my relationship with food was always in extremes, there was…

Mental Health and Self Medicating

I have been wanting to work on this project for a prolonged period but it has never felt quite like the right time. Of course I would like to have documented my journey from the very beginning but speaking plainly I have been just too ill. Initially physically and then later on, psychologically. For numerous…