My Drug Dealer Was A Doctor!

I am an addict through and through and so I would first like to say that the onus has always been very much on me. I take full responsibility for my actions and the problems that have ensued. Although, I would also argue that doctors and various other medical professionals have also played a part…

Ten Months Sober!

Where are we guys? It’s been a while! Not sure as to why but for whatever reason I have been experiencing a creative block and so haven’t really felt like writing or communicating anything although I am pleased to tell you that I have continued with my journey and am now ten months sober! Woop…

Cold Showers, Wild Swimming & I Found My Tribe!

It came to a point in my life where I literally had to ask myself a very important question, do you want to be a drug addict or not? Although my circumstances were increasingly difficult, it was actually really quite simple, what did I want for myself and my life moving forward? Despite being well…

Homelessness & How I Can Be Of Service…

If I can’t be anything else then I will be kind and as far as is possible, generous. As I expressed in my last blog entry, I really took a lot from the twelve step program and the narcotics anonymous meetings that I attended. The main one being that of ‘service’. What does it mean…

Talk to me about ‘Narcotics Anonymous’ #N/A

Could I please put it out there and ask the universe as to whether I should attend a Narcotics Anonymous group? I am now nearly seven months sober but often find myself wondering if I need to be following a program in order to remain clean for the duration and sober in the long term?…

Six Months Sober!

I am so happy to be able to tell you that I am now six months sober! To be more precise it is now six months, twelve days, one hour, eleven minutes and seven seconds. I am using a free app called ‘I Am Sober’ to count the months, weeks, days, hours and minutes. My…

Prescription Painkillers And More…

So where was I, O yes “Strug to func!” Due to crippling anxiety and desperate depression I was struggling to function on a normal day to day level. Failing to carry out even the most basic of tasks such as getting out of bed, bathing myself and eating. However, like a light going on in…

Can I Get A Rewind!

I’ve always been quite obsessive by nature, my mother described me as an all or nothing girl. You either have all of me or absolutely nothing. I never understood what it meant to be ‘balanced’, how to approach things in a balanced manner. For instance, my relationship with food was always in extremes, there was…

Mental Health and Self Medicating

I have been wanting to work on this project for a prolonged period but it has never felt quite like the right time. Of course I would like to have documented my journey from the very beginning but speaking plainly I have been just too ill. Initially physically and then later on, psychologically. For numerous…